Well, alright, thanks for the detailed reply. Evil, Toga, yeah I do understand whining won't get me what I want. I always have. But it just seemed so ridiculous that I was waiting a long time, and I understand I'd probably change my own mind if I heard myself, but you should think about how I felt when I cracked under the bullshit of waiting too long, but then I hear if I had waited a few days longer I would have it. That just made me feel so awful and angry, too horrible to simply stop right there. And the whole thing that sparked the event was when you guys were fooling with admin that night. All I could do was let you spawn me, walk around with no spawning privileges while I let you have all the fun, and repeatedly get punched by Scanner. I felt pretty left out. The whole time, I was thinking, man, it would be great if I had admin and could join these guys, and why not? I've waited longer than Sniper and proven I wouldn't abuse it. So I asked you guys and you all said "I don't know." That annoyed me a lot, but I thought I'd ask again. And again. And again. Until finally I got another answer. Hearing that I should've waited longer to ask, I was infuriated.
And you can't pick on me for barely playing Crysis at the time. That was when our only server was in Amsterdam and I was still on 14KB/sec. I wasn't even able to join the server without getting autokicked, let alone play through impossible lag. Now that I'm actually able, I hope you've noticed I'm playing all the time.